I was born on a year ending in 0, and that for some reason has a resonance with me. Probably because another decade has passed, but 2020 to me means a lot. I’m 40. This is a milestone, FORTY! I’ve lived a strange life, and because of that I feel immature in a lot of ways. I still struggle with figuring out who I am. Is that ridiculous? Maybe, maybe not. I mean, I know who I am but I don’t know why I sometimes do what I do, or behave how I behave.
Maybe it’s because I just turned 40 that I’m doing an assessment of my life. My life, in all fairness is great! I’m married to the most patient, understanding and caring man I could’ve asked for. I have an incredible job that allows me freedom to work from anywhere. I live in a home that we own. So there’s really nothing to complain about. The things I’m looking at are deeper, like why do I drink to much? Why do I not utilize my time better? I think I’ve been given so many gifts and am not utilizing them, almost like I’m kiboshing my own success because I feel I’m not worth it.
These are all the things that have been going through my head in the last 24 hours.
Making attainable changes
I’ve read a couple blogs recently about resolutions. People set these lofty goals on New Years and most give up by February. I can recommend setting smaller goals, goals that may take time to achieve but will lead up to a huge change over time.
What I’ve been doing over the last month is really focusing on small work outs. I don’t have a time of time to spend hours a day exercising, but what I can do is 30 minutes in the morning and when I have time throughout the day jump down and pound out some crunches or whatever.
I am still working towards my goal of not drinking throughout the week. I don’t know what it is about sales people, we all seem to drink more than most. It could be that our jobs are stressful, or that often when you meet with clients it’s over drinks, dinner etc. So…when I am not meeting with clients I don’t need to have a drink after work.
First post of the year
This is my first post this year and another focus of mine is to be brutally honest with myself and share my struggles and successes. The only way forward is up!
Thanks for reading and I look forward to sharing more!
I feel incredibly lucky. I’ve been searching for a career for years after leaving the retail telecommunications industry. I worked as a manager for Starbucks, and then as a product expert for Trail Appliances. Neither role fuelled my creativity or allowed me to really focus on what I do best. I just received an offer to work with a VoIP telephone company that kicks the butt of anything I’ve done professionally for years. My new title is Western Canada channel account manager. I will work remotely, and bring on partners that want to sell our service.
What this role allows for, is freedom from being locked into a singular location. It allows me to be creative in the sense of, I am in charge of how I bring partners on. I’ve always been in some form of sales and management role and now I have the best of both worlds. I get to sell a service that actually works, saves companies money and also manage people in how they can position it as an offering in their MSP lineup.
The world of retail is dying, and being able to move away from that and have a job that provides a service is where it’s at. I start this role in 12 days and I can’t wait. My hubby and I will now both be remote workers which will allow for more time together and also travel. It’s honestly my dream job other than being a full time artist which if I’m honest is hard to do.
I’m nearly 40 years old and feel I’ve finally landed the last job I’ll ever have which is incredible. It’s never to late to walk away from things that don’t work for you. It’s sometimes scary to put yourself out there, but sometimes it works out and bam your life changes.
A few blogs ago I was talking about a venture Luke and I were looking into. Since then several companies have come into play taking our plan right out from under us. On the bright side if we had started we would’ve been the ones taking all the risk. So we are stepping back to see how it pans out for them. We may start up next spring, but for now we will let these companies iron out all the potential problems with the city and the clientele.
So for now….
Today is my one day off this weekend. We actually slept in (by that I mean we slept past 6am, all the way to 7:40). We feel rested and ready to take on the day.
Have coffee, tidy up the kitchen, and finish laundry.
Take the dogs to the park. We want to tire them out so we can spend time without them.
Pack a picnic and head to the beach to float on the lake.
Finish our project of repurposing the vintage table and chairs we found on Facebook marketplace.
Sounds like a nice way to spend a day don’t ya think?
I also have to finish a few art pieces for the upcoming art walk happening downtown Kelowna on August 1st. This event happens every year and this will hopefully be the first of many for me.
I had prints done so that I can sell my art even if it’s not the original. This way I’ll get more work out there. I find during these types of events people don’t want to spend big bucks. So having prints at $20-$30 makes it more feasible that I’ll sell something.