I was born on a year ending in 0, and that for some reason has a resonance with me. Probably because another decade has passed, but 2020 to me means a lot. I’m 40. This is a milestone, FORTY! I’ve lived a strange life, and because of that I feel immature in a lot of ways. I still struggle with figuring out who I am. Is that ridiculous? Maybe, maybe not. I mean, I know who I am but I don’t know why I sometimes do what I do, or behave how I behave.
Maybe it’s because I just turned 40 that I’m doing an assessment of my life. My life, in all fairness is great! I’m married to the most patient, understanding and caring man I could’ve asked for. I have an incredible job that allows me freedom to work from anywhere. I live in a home that we own. So there’s really nothing to complain about. The things I’m looking at are deeper, like why do I drink to much? Why do I not utilize my time better? I think I’ve been given so many gifts and am not utilizing them, almost like I’m kiboshing my own success because I feel I’m not worth it.
These are all the things that have been going through my head in the last 24 hours.
Making attainable changes
I’ve read a couple blogs recently about resolutions. People set these lofty goals on New Years and most give up by February. I can recommend setting smaller goals, goals that may take time to achieve but will lead up to a huge change over time.
What I’ve been doing over the last month is really focusing on small work outs. I don’t have a time of time to spend hours a day exercising, but what I can do is 30 minutes in the morning and when I have time throughout the day jump down and pound out some crunches or whatever.
I am still working towards my goal of not drinking throughout the week. I don’t know what it is about sales people, we all seem to drink more than most. It could be that our jobs are stressful, or that often when you meet with clients it’s over drinks, dinner etc. So…when I am not meeting with clients I don’t need to have a drink after work.
First post of the year
This is my first post this year and another focus of mine is to be brutally honest with myself and share my struggles and successes. The only way forward is up!
Thanks for reading and I look forward to sharing more!
I spent Monday at the dentist which as usual left me feeling anxious and in pain. I have spent a lot of time at the dentist throughout my life and none of it was due to cavities, all due to bone and gum issues. It’s honestly very frustrating. Most of my issues are hereditary but I had some poor behaviours in my 20’s that didn’t help. I have another 5 or so appointments and I should be done! Because of this surgery this week is a recovery week.
The benefit to having a recovery week is I get to study for my new role. I start a new career on Monday and I am thrilled. As I mentioned in my previous post I’ve been struggling with my current job because the market is so difficult to manage. My new role allows me to control where I go and how I approach potential clients. My new title is Western Canada Channel Account Manager. Sounds like a mouthful doesn’t it? I get to work from home for the majority of the time because of technology I can connect with clients remotely. I will have to travel from time to time which is also cool. I won’t be locked into one place just waiting for clients to come to me anymore.
This new beginning is a game changer for my husband and I. He works in the same field and also works remotely. We will be working Monday through Friday, be able to take vacations together easily. Can work from a campsite if we wanted too, as long as we have internet and phone connections.
I’ve never been one to settle, I’ve always pushed towards bettering my life. If a job doesn’t fit I persist until something better comes along. They say your 40’s are the money making years. So let’s go!
I feel incredibly lucky. I’ve been searching for a career for years after leaving the retail telecommunications industry. I worked as a manager for Starbucks, and then as a product expert for Trail Appliances. Neither role fuelled my creativity or allowed me to really focus on what I do best. I just received an offer to work with a VoIP telephone company that kicks the butt of anything I’ve done professionally for years. My new title is Western Canada channel account manager. I will work remotely, and bring on partners that want to sell our service.
What this role allows for, is freedom from being locked into a singular location. It allows me to be creative in the sense of, I am in charge of how I bring partners on. I’ve always been in some form of sales and management role and now I have the best of both worlds. I get to sell a service that actually works, saves companies money and also manage people in how they can position it as an offering in their MSP lineup.
The world of retail is dying, and being able to move away from that and have a job that provides a service is where it’s at. I start this role in 12 days and I can’t wait. My hubby and I will now both be remote workers which will allow for more time together and also travel. It’s honestly my dream job other than being a full time artist which if I’m honest is hard to do.
I’m nearly 40 years old and feel I’ve finally landed the last job I’ll ever have which is incredible. It’s never to late to walk away from things that don’t work for you. It’s sometimes scary to put yourself out there, but sometimes it works out and bam your life changes.